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Begininning again
Posted:Aug 14, 2018 6:12 pm
Last Updated:Nov 17, 2018 6:32 pm
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Have a little bit of time away from helping kids sort through their myriad of life drama, so I thought I'd get working on the blog.
A old friend of mine, from this site asked where my blog was. Told them it was deleted along with my old profile and she immediately chastised for not getting it back up. There's a joke in there somewhere, but I'm going to let it pass. Anyways, it seems I'm susceptible to goading, so here we go.

I have played the guitar and sang for god knows how many years. I was sure I was going to be a rock star in high school/college, but I'll let you guess how that turned out.

Since then, it's been hit and miss. I'll put the guitar down for a couple of years at a time, which is surprising if you've seen my bedroom. haha Only a chosen few will understand that line. Then i pick it up again and learn some new stuff and hopefully write some new songs. I'll start off with a song i wrote a few years back about a recurring dream. And a newer one. I'll try to remember to update it, but to be honest, I can go years with writing nothing, then spit out 15 songs in a month.

BTW. All the lyrics I post have been copyrighted.
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Take me as I am
Posted:Aug 14, 2018 6:59 pm
Last Updated:Aug 22, 2018 6:02 pm
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Ok, this one is more about relationships over the last 5 years. very honest about my thoughts that I really don't think I want to get married again. Been divorced for quite a while. Yet it always seems that, though I make that point up front. And it's agreed upon, most have ended up with me being the bad guy, who doesn't want to get married. I don't mind being a bad boy, but i hate being the bad guy.

Verse
You ask me who I want to be,
always just the man you see.
It's been so long since I tore down those walls.
Been here once or twice my friend,
Never like the way it ends.
When smiles turn into tears and the world seems to fall.
Watch it fall.

Chorus
It's really not that hard to just take me as I am,
You tell me what you need to live,
It's just the one thing I can't give.
And I don't want to be the one who makes you cry.
So if you have to leave, I understand.
It's a shame you couldn't take me as I am.

Verse
I'd love to see you one more night,
I know that won't make it right,
But i really hate to see us end like this.
You never had to suffer lies,
my heart was never in disguise.
So if you have to leave, why can't it be with a kiss.
Oh my friend.

Chorus
It's really not that hard to just take me as I am,
You tell me what you need to live,
It's just the one thing I can't give.
And I don't want to be the one who makes you cry.
So if you have to leave, I understand.
It's a shame you couldn't take me as I am.

Instrumental, then
Repeat Chorus with

It's a shame you couldn't take me as I am.
Why couldn't you just take me as I am.
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Back Home
Posted:Sep 25, 2018 12:52 pm
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2018 11:18 am
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Well this was a fun find. Going through some old memory stuff last night, looking for a letter. I found part of a song. Reading through it, i was dumbfounded. This is the very first song I wrote! I was 17 at the time, and reading it was thinking, "Damn, I was a moody little bastard".

Doesn't have the second verse, and for the life of me, I can't remember it. What was funny, I picked up a guitar, and within 5 minutes was playing it. Can't believe I remember the melody. Half the time I can't remember songs I wrote last year. I'm still trying to figure out what a 17 year old was thinking were the good old days.

Back Home.

We live on dreams while we're young,
Try to turn ourselves into someone.
But the things we do,
Can't erase the things that we've done.

So we leave our homes to try and find,
A better world then we left behind.
But we find that,
Happiness is just a frame of mind.

Chorus.
But don't you try to find your way,
Back Home.
Back to all those good old days that have gone.
Live your life one day at a time,
Remembering nothing can be done.
About all those good old days that have gone.
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There can be no beans...:)
Posted:Nov 17, 2018 12:15 pm
Last Updated:Nov 17, 2018 5:39 pm
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If you happened to miss my ranting rave last night, the last 24 hours have been a bitch. Things are settling down..Certainly not settled, but now it's just working through the problem. That said, I figured I'd cook some of my Texas Chili today. Cooking, the smell of the chili, and of course eating a good bowl of chili always helps my soul.

We had a slight discussion among a few of us on here, about what goes in chili. Or more concisely, what doesn't. I consider myself a "purist" with a lot of stuff and chili is one of those things.

There is no such thing as a melon margarita. There is no such thing as an apple martini.I do like mixing chocolate liqueur with vodka...but it's not a chocolate martini. It just doesn't exist , in a purist way of thinking. LOL.

And yes, Chili, or more specifically Texas Chili has no beans. Sure you can make a chili with beans. My turncoat daughter, likes beans in her chili. I still love her, though there are many comments made about turning her back on Texas. She's just obviously not as much of a Purist, as I am. That's ok. I've always said, I'd like them to be their own person, and always be better than me.

The chili is still cooking. Takes most of the day. My oldest is coming over in a bit with his wife and kids. He tends to be a purist as well, so I'm sure we'll be ganging up on the bean lover. I'll update this as the chili moves along.

Do you find yourself being a purist on certain things? Foods and drinks? Other things in life?
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It's a trust thing.
Posted:Nov 16, 2018 7:49 pm
Last Updated:Nov 17, 2018 6:33 pm
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Betrayal of trust is something that, in a very unrealistic point of view, means something more to me than anyone in the world. It's a vain statement. A egotistical statement. A phrase I came up with to describe other people, a myopic narcissistic statement.

But at the moment, it describes me.

Right now, as typing this, trying to comprehend to what degree I feel betrayed. trying to deal with a hurt, a anger, that not sure I've ever felt. For the first time in over 30 , looking for a reason to hit someone. Anyone. No regards for whether I win or lose. just like when I was a young, irresponsible idiot, who had no care of the outcome. Didn't plan on living forever anyway. I'd almost relish the feeling of getting hit right now, just to feel a pain that was physical, not mental.

enough now, maybe wise enough, to just lock myself away. Physically and emotionally. No danger to myself, or anyone else. And with some more wine, the never ending tick of time, and the help of some friends, it will pass.

Trust and honesty, is to me, more important than breathing. It is the one thing that binds me to my world. When it's broken by a lover, it hurts. When it's broken by someone I love and care about, it's like nothing in the world exists. Nothing left is real.

I will get through this, I always do. In the grand scheme of things, it's probably no where near as bad as it seems at the moment.

But as you might have noticed...it is affecting me.

Betrayal of trust, is never a good thing...
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Damn that Phone
Posted:Nov 15, 2018 1:00 pm
Last Updated:Nov 17, 2018 6:35 pm
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I use my phone for work, so it's always on. And thankfully, for the work part of it, constantly ringing. Lots of phone calls means lots of work.

However these days, I'd say my phone calls have doubled. And it's not because of work. I get so many crazy telemarketing calls these days it's not even funny. I mean, calls for mortgages, calls for healthcare, calls for auto warranty's, calls in Spanish.

Hell my phone is lit up with "Scam Likely" calls constantly. It's getting crazy.

I haven't had a home phone for over 12 years. I got rid of it, because the people that ever called the were telemarketers. Everyone else called my cell phone. Now...everyone calls my cell. Even the telemarketers. There's gotta be something I can do about this, but for the life of me, I can't find it.

It's not like I'm giving out my to people. I never trust that, "we don't sell your ". I either don't give it, or I give them a fake .

I could see if it was like my freshman year in college. My roommate and I thought it would be fun to copy an AC/DC song. So we used window paint and wrote..."Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap", with our phone on our dorm window. We got some crazy calls, and some even crazier drop in's. Might even have gotten lucky more than once off it. Well worth our being "published". LOL

But I digress from my bitching.

Is everyone getting this many telemarketing calls on their cells? Is there some way to stop it than any of you know? I'd look it up on the internet, but it'd probably lead me to a site that offered a solution. If I just give them my phone .
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See ya Roy.
Posted:Nov 15, 2018 11:01 am
Last Updated:Nov 15, 2018 7:07 pm
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I'm not really a fan of the new country. Though there's a couple that are ok. But in my youth, I listened to a lot of what my dad listened to. And watched his favorite show with him, many times. Hee Haw. Crazy, country variety show, with lots of music.

One of the best on there was Roy Clark. Today, Roy passed away. While I may not have been what many would refer to as a fan, no guitarist could argue his ability on the guitar. Or the banjo, or the fiddle or the mandolin. Face it. That dude was a stringed virtuoso.

I hate to see any great guitarist leave us, and Roy is no exception.

Rest in peace Roy.
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HNW-Fall In Brown Leather
Posted:Nov 14, 2018 12:54 pm
Last Updated:Nov 16, 2018 6:27 am
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I hate to admit this, after BJ's pic in the snow, but it was in the high 40s here. And I was freezing when I came back in. LOL.

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Well, generally speaking......
Posted:Nov 13, 2018 1:03 pm
Last Updated:Nov 14, 2018 5:19 am
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Well, I think we can all rest a little easier tonight. One of the age old questions of the universe has just been answered, by a think tank at Cambridge University. Wait for it.....Women and Men are different in the way they think.

Holy Hell! I knew something was up!

The lines that got me were , first.."Scientists claim to have discovered what sets men and women apart". Really, after all these years, they just discovered. Apparently the author of the article wasn't all that sure they were right, cause he did have to throw in a "claim to have discovered". Maybe it's really not answered after all.

And second, " men will be more interested by systems, while women will have higher degrees of emotional intelligence – the so-called empathizing-systemizing theory of sex differences." I'm not even sure I know what that means, and will have to research it, I'm sure.

But it makes me think immediately of something I notice from time to time. Too many times, we "generalize" people. In regards to this study, does that mean that all women run only on emotion? I don't think so.I've known quite a few women that I've considered "non-emotional". Are all men conversely, non emotional, and only run on logic? Again, I'd have to say absolutely not. I know lots of guys that don't seem to follow even the simplest of logic.

It's the problem with generalization, in my opinion. All women are not alike, and neither are all men. For that matter, all people aren't like all people. We all think, process and act just a little different. Ok..sometimes a lot differently. It's sorta what makes it interesting, doesn't it? Trying to do a study between the differences between the genders, as been overdone ever since the "Men are from Mars", days. LOL Just my opinion, of course. But it all just seems to be generalization.

I see it during everyday conversations. I see it on here. Would it be generalization, on my part, if I said, "It's generally everywhere, and usually not all that accurate".

On here, I could say, not all men are horn dogs, and unable to communicate beyond a "me horny" vernacular. There may be a lot of them that fit that statement, but there's many that don't. I see some very articulate and well written guys on here.

It happens with the dick pics. Not all men send them out like they're waving a flag at a parade. Not all women like, or dislike taking a peek at the said flag. This one gets beaten to death like a red headed step mule.

But in the end, aren't they just really generalizations and if I might add, not inclusive of the entire gender?

I like to think I keep a pretty open mind, and try not to color anyone into a certain box. I think, that if I were to do a study, it would be on the fallacy of generalizations. Especially where humans are concerned. My study would prove that sure, men are different than women. I'd even throw in the wonderful literary gem, from Kindergarten Cop. "Boys Have A Penis, Girls Have a Vagina". I know, I know. Brilliant right? I wonder how much funding I could get for a study on this mental epiphany.

I'd say that all people are different, and it goes way beyond gender. But that's a wonderful thing. At the very least, it keeps life interesting. But that might just be a generalization on my part.

Do you find yourself generalizing? Do you think you fit the male/female templates? I don't really think I do, but maybe that's just me. Like I said on my profile, the thought of fitting in actually makes me cringe.
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Are you blushing?
Posted:Nov 12, 2018 12:52 pm
Last Updated:Nov 13, 2018 5:04 am
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Out at work today, my daughter texted me, as she is prone to do. She had started her period and realized she didn't have enough tampons and liners. So of course, I stopped by the grocery store to pick some up for her.

At the register checking out, a young lady cashier makes a comment about how great it is that I'm not embarrassed to buy feminine products for my wife. I told her, they were for my daughter and said I never understood why it embarrasses some guys. A lady, in line behind me, says her husband refuses to buy feminine products. I just shook my head and said I thought it was a silly thing to be embarrassed about.

I guess most people have things that embarrass them. Though I've never understood this one. It's just a natural thing, that really isn't a secret. Once a month or so, women bleed. And they use feminine products. If you're married, attached or have teenage daughters, trust me, everyone knows they have periods.

It takes a lot to embarrass me. It must, because for the life of me I can't think of anything that makes me blush.

I made the mistake, of diving off a cliff at a nearby lake, in gym shorts. Those babies swooshed right off me in a instant. And being sorta murky, I couldn't find them. So, I swam up to shore and hollered up at my friends to throw me down a towel. A girl that was there, said something to the effect of how embarrassing that was. I asked, was it?

I've had people walk in on me while I was in the restroom. Hell, I've walked into other people using the restroom. Just no big deal to me. Say, sorry and close the door.

I thought this would be a good place to ask if people get embarrassed easily. I mean, certainly there are plenty of people who don't get embarrassed if someone see's them naked. But I wonder if there's others that do? Or if there are other things in life that embarrass you.

It's sorta funny, because I feel bad when I see someone embarrassed. Like if they trip, or spill a drink at a bar. I always try to help them laugh it off. But I really can't remember the last time I felt embarrassed. Maybe I'm just used to laughing at some of the things I do.
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It's National Gumbo Day?
Posted:Nov 10, 2018 4:11 pm
Last Updated:Nov 14, 2018 5:22 am
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Ok...well maybe that's not true. I just wanted to sound as well informed and smart as the wonderful Pocogato. But since I pale in comparison to our "little kitty", let me just say it was Gumbo day at my house.

I love Seafood Gumbo and have spent years tweaking and mastering the dish. It started with a recipe and lesson I got from a girlfriends mom, during a stint I spent in Louisiana. She was a wonderful, friendly, Cajun lady, who made us dinner more than once. As she explained it to me, making great Gumbo is a lot like life.

If you don't fill your life with good stuff, it can never be as good as it should be. Try to fill it with poor choices and half ass stuff, and it's gonna turn out the same. So we only use the highest quality ingredients when making Gumbo. All organic fresh vegetables...better if they were grown in your garden.



Patience is needed. And the attention to the little details. Too many people rush through life. But life is not a race. It's a journey. When making Roux, you have to take your time and cook it to the right color. Has to reach that chocolate brown, or it's just not gumbo roux. Patience is needed to cook it slow, and steady. Never, ever stop stirring. If the house catches on fire, keep stirring and let the fireman just fight it around you. It takes a good 45 minutes. (hint, she said her mom used to cook a roux that took 4 hours or better). Damn.



Don't stop caring halfway through. Many people she told me, just give up half way through. Sorta like life. "I'm tired of this, just dump the okra in." Show some tenacity and stick with it...the okra needs to be cooked in a pan with a little oil. Till the "strings" are no longer there. If you just dump it in...you might as well never started in the first place.



Then learn to relax, and let life run it's course. Simmer it for a bit. Let it "rest" for two or three hours, before you finish it out with the seafood. She said, two many times we're so much in a hurry to get somewhere, we forget to notice the stuff that is all around us. Stop, relax and enjoy your journey.



Finally, you hit the conclusion. If you followed everything, exactly, you are rewarded with success and happiness. And in this case, fantastic Shrimp and Crab Gumbo.



I remember the girlfriend was a lot of fun and seemed so easy going. And this is when we were in our early 20's. But I'll never forget her mom. She was an intense lady, could be quick to anger, but if she liked you, you couldn't have a better friend. She was fun to be around and made me some great dinners. Jambalaya, Red Beans and Rice, great Boiled Crawfish, and of course, Seafood Gumbo. One of my all time favorites.
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